When will it ever get easy and not awkward to hear people talk about their amazing wedding stories. Especially with a group of people you don't know and who don't know your story. The fact of the matter is, I don't have an awful wedding story - I actually have a really great one. But it's one that I don't feel like I can tell because it comes with all kinds of questions. I have an amazing story that I feel like I can't talk about. How unfair is that? How ridiculous is that? I know that I CAN tell it, but who wants to the person who turns the discussion from happy to depressing? Even if it's not my intention, as soon as someone asks me "how long have you been married?" suddenly it becomes a whole other story. One that I don't always want to have to go through.
So, being in this situation tonight, I just sit there like I've never been married. Never planned a wedding, never had a husband, don't have any stories to tell. The last 8 months to 2 years of my life just don't exist. They get wiped from past, my history.
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